MixedAndRandom.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008, 11:05 PM

♥ I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh :(
boy. Tell me now.!

Yesterday met my parents at central :)
then saw Marshall somewhere.
& i saw Arena & Esther ! omg. i miss them lah
then Samantha came find me. :D
After that we met again outside LanShop.
Arena & Esther went dinner together with me & my parents.
Then i stayed with them while my parents went shopping themselves.
Saw JunBin & B2 sister.
& we slacked around amk. Went LanShop :D
-the amk rotting tong ? hahahaha ! funny eh.

Today went to work as usual,
no mood in working lah. I'm so tried !
ah boon today keep di-siao me
& he wanted to drink my water =.=
Weikeat was in bad mood, we think haha.

after work went tampines shopping with Elsie :)
hahaha actually also want to go find someone
but he's not working today . . . :( lol

Saw B1 & B2. brother & sister ! haha :)
ate dinner & shopped around.
& Bought Hooch ! yeah hahahah so hot lah . . .
Went to a hp shop to buy something
then that guy ask me sent him my ring tone .
again ~ first is weikeat =.= LOL !

many things ran through my mind when I'm on my way home.
I'm so sad now. :( *thinking deeply
give me some alcoholssss. i want to force myself to sleep ...
haha maybe I'll be emo back again like that day...
is like. WHAT THE HELL .
you're giving me heart attack alright.
I'm dying already lah.

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did ,You fell so hard
I learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you. I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you. I learned to play on the safe side, So I don't get hurt
Because of you. I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you. I am afraid ...

I lose my way & it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes ..
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life .
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with ...

I watched you die. I heard you cry, Every night in your sleep ..
I was so young, You should have known better than to lean on me.
You never thought of anyone else, You just saw your pain.
And now I cry in the middle of the night
Over the same damn thing !

- till the day i let you go

( till we say our next hello )